…even if only after the fact.
I’m doing…okay. I’ve been trying too hard for a while now…encouraging loved ones to leave a toxic boss (efforts wasted); helping my neighbors survive his 2.5 month hospital/rehab stay after what was supposed to be outpatient surgery and encouraging them to make better choices (efforts wasted); writing about fighting evil and being reconciled to God (efforts draw evil to me); water pipes splitting and soaking carpeted floor, sections of floor falling in, door falling off hinges; battling mosquitoes, heat, drought, …are we having fun, yet?
It’s like single-parenting….you just don’t die from this….well. not yet, anyway
I am emotionally depleted and physically worn out from the heat. My plants are heat stressed and turning yellow. My dog has had intestinal issues for days (throughout the house) and is not eating (she just watches as the cat eats her food 8 inches away) and my neighbor insists on throwing chicken bones and pizza scraps in the yard for her to find. Oh, and my cat apparently has cat-betes and is losing his eyesight.
But, I persevere. Yesterday, I spent the Fourth watching the flag gently wave in the rippling heat and the Morning Glories slowly unfurl and re-furl…and not much else.
Besides, I am happier and more stable than I was in North Carolina. I’m physically stronger and on less medication. And I pick my battles…even if only after the fact. (“Well, that was a pointless, losing battle.”)